Wednesday, November 13, 2002

@ 2002-11-13 09:23:00

Had Little Man's 4 month check-up yesterday

although he's 4 months old today...

length: 26 and a quarter inches
weight: 16 lbs 4 oz (so he's less than 2 lbs away from doubling his birth weight)
head circumference: 42

that puts him in the 75% percentile though they said his length might be a lil off since he was squirming.

I didn't like the nurse who gave him his shot though

too hungry to write right now...

Tuesday, October 22, 2002

@ 2002-10-22 18:19:00

Current mood: rejuvenated

proud mommy day

Little Man rolled all the way over today... he's been rolling from his back to his side for a month or more but he would always get pissed off before he actually got all the way over onto his stomach.

once on his tummy he seemed very nonchalant about the whole thing but i was VERY excited :>:>:>

Sunday, October 20, 2002

@ 2002-10-20 13:26:00

re: giving Little Man formula for the 1st time yesterday

Little Man was born July 13th so he's over 3 months, specifically he's 14 weeks and 1 day old.

Breast-feeding has been going very well, at his 2 mnth appt he was in the 95 percentile re: weight and height.

Yesterday I was bfing him about every 1.5 hrs for at least 15 minutes and he had an extended 45 min feed at 3 p.m.

we left him with Mom at 4:30 and she fed him 7 oz at 6 p.m. and 7 oz at 9:45 p.m. (those were formula feedings) then I fed him for 15 mins at 12:20 a.m. and then at 1 he was still up and wanted a bit more so I fed him a 5 min "snack" feeding adn then we all went to bed.

Normally he eats about every 3 hrs if he's feeding for at least 15 mins but with the teething, grumpiness, sleep sked fucked up etc... he's been wanting to be on the boob a LOT more

Thursday, October 17, 2002

@ 2002-10-17 23:52:00

Current mood: satisfied

mom stuff
so i am awake still...

feeling really rundown today but still in good spirits.

everytime I look at Little Man I am utterly amazed at how strong and smart he is! And he is almost always SO happy and I want to do my best to help him stay that happy for the rest of his life.

I always imagined how much I'd love my children when I would someday have them but it wasn't even close to the way I feel... my love for my son blows what I had imagined I'd feel out of the water with the intensity of it all.


Monday, September 30, 2002

@ 2002-09-30 22:51:00

1st real laugh
got 3 outta Little Man yesterday during "Intsy Weensy Spider" :>:>:>

stupid camera f*cking broke today... wrecked an entire film with some great shots *ARRGH*

Monday, September 9, 2002

@ 2002-09-09 20:02:00

Current mood: chipper

What Little Man gave his Daddy for his Bday

Today DS turned 30.

Today marked the supreme champion in worst poop ever... DS was holding a grunting and red-faced Little Man who proceeded to expell a golf-ball sized poop out of the leg of his diaper and onto DS's arm PLUS filling his entire diaper.

then, he grinned, alot, until we had to change his outfit.

It is friggin HOT in here, we may be turning around and heading to Mom's for the night

*wipes away sweat*

Tuesday, August 13, 2002

@ 2002-08-13 20:45:00

Current mood: warm

Wow, a moment of peace
The wee one is sleeping. He had a busy day today. At his 1 month appt at the DR we learned that he is now 11 lbs even and is 23 and a half inches long. At birth he was 8 lbs 11 oz and 21 inches long (i think... I may need to re-check his length).

DR believes Little Man is allergic to SOMETHING that I eat re: his super-green, super-stinky poos and his nasty gas following every feeding.

For me... I am starting to feel a lot better. At the time of his birth I was approx 265 lbs and I am now down to 229 lbs.

Wednesday, July 31, 2002

@ 2002-07-31 21:21:00

Current mood: complacent

Quick update while Little Man is sleeping

Hey :>

He is eating like a FIEND!!!!!!!! draining both breasts at all his feedings today... arrgh, it's kinda uncomfy and tiring but good because I swear he's even bigger than he was at his check-up last wk.

Last Thurs he was at our new DR and he was 9 lbs 4 oz and was 22 inches long. He seriously looks and feels bigger/heavier already :>

Sunday, July 21, 2002

@ 2002-07-21 14:00:00

So Little Man is only waking us up once in the middle of the night.

The hospital was a big pain in the ass on the whole "You must wake your baby at least every 3 hrs and force them to eat so they will be on a schedule".

Screw that... it was unsuccessful in hospital and I did try it the 1st night we were home and it sucked!

Instead, I just let him sleep and when I hear him squirming, I get him up and see if he wants to feed. If he doesn't... then DS sees if he needs a change. If it's neither, we cuddle for a bit and then back to bed he goes. It's much simpler and easier on us all this way.

So far Little Man's sked seems to be as follows: He wakes us up once in the middle of the night to feed (usually around 4:30 a.m.) then he'll sleep for 3 - 4 hrs between feedings until around 1 p.m. then in the afternoon he'll wake and want to feed about every 2 hrs until around 7 or 7:30 p.m. and then it's back to 3 - 4 hrs between feedings.

He tends to get over-stimulated when he's being passed around from various visitors so I am going to get a lil hardcore about rules for visiting with the baby.

Rule #1 Let sleeping babies lie. Do NOT pick him up or try to wake him when he is sleeping.

#2 If you want to hold him, hold him for awhile... don't play pass the baby as if you were in kindergarten playing "Hot Potato"

#3 Don't smoke near the baby EVER (this one everyone has been good about so far, but I haven't seen my chain-smoking grandparents yet)

#4 Don't be afraid to cuddle him. Some ppl seem to hold him out at arm's length and it makes both of them uncomfy and tense. If you are afraid to hold the baby, don't feel pressured to hold the baby.

#5 Mommy is very tired... if you are holding him and don't want to change a stinky diaper... ask Daddy to do it :>

Tuesday, July 16, 2002

1st day home

@ 2002-07-16 18:34:00

Current mood: exhausted/happy

I am sore.

Had my staples (all 26 of them) removed before I was released today... found out that my GP has left the country and I have no actual DR for myself or Little Man because Dr. K... the f*cking c*nt... didn't inform any of her patients that she was leaving. Since I've been going to only the OB for the last while, I don't even know when she fucked off but I'm stressed about it.

I still look rather preggers and am I ever sore and tender.

I had Little Man by emergency C-section and it looks like if I want to continue living that this was my one and only baby. But he's SO adorable!!!

Monday, July 15, 2002

@ 2002-07-15 09:15:00

Auntie Siren posting for Momma again...

I'm on the phone with Momma now...her direct quote "someone kill the screaming baby next door, it's driving me crazy". Just for reference, I can hear the baby through the phone and it's REALLY loud and has been going on for 20 minutes.

Little Man is already able to hold his headup on his own. During my visit yesterday, he was alos able to roll on to his side and back on his own. Strong little dude! The nurses are all impressed with his strength. Personally, Momma thinks he is only holding up his head in order to shoot dirty looks at the screaming baby next door :>

He is already displaying his distinct stubborn personality (inherited from his oh so stubborn mommy), and has mastered the grinning one-eyed pirate face.

Pain killers are Momma's friends and her staples should be coming out today or tomorrow.

Much love to you all!

Friday, June 28, 2002

@ 2002-06-28 09:24:00

Current mood: happy

I was wondering if anyone else was maybe feeling this sorta way by now

Slept on my back for the 1st time in what feels like forever and when I woke up I didn't have any probs breathing at all!!!!!!!

So that says to me that Lil One has definately dropped because I haven't been able to breathe properly on my back for ages and when I'd attempt to lay more on my back than on my side, my breathing became a hell of an issue.

Had some pretty sharp pains this morning though. Not BH contractions or anything, just sharp pain more to my right side like someone pinched me really hard where my leg atttaches to my torso.

Feel fine now.

Lil One appears to be sticking out in front more so than normal too because I really don't have any chest pressure at all, not even slight...

So I'm thinking this is "lightening"... wonder what's happening next? But so long as I am not having any BH contractions (or any sort of contractions at all) and there's still been no sign of a disintergrating or an exitting mucus plug, no show or anything --- I'm not worried.

But I feel pretty damn good right now :>

Tuesday, May 14, 2002

@ 2002-05-14 10:13:00

Current mood: ecstatic

DS finally felt Lil One moving and kicking!!!!!!!

Happened last night during an *ahem* intimate moment :>

He was so thrilled!!!

And now that he's felt lil one once, he was able to feel the baby this morning too :>

I am in a good mood even though I have (surprise, surprise) packing to do...

Saturday, May 4, 2002

No wonder he likes Spiderman so much!

@ 2002-05-04 11:04:00

BTW, saw Spiderman last night

GDB treated us to a night out and a 10:30 p.m. showing...

I really enjoyed it, thought some of the effects could have been better (some seemed somewhat unfinished) but all in all, I really enjoyed it although lil one kicked me like crazy through most of it...

going to sammygirl's for some gardening and sunshine

Monday, April 15, 2002

@ 2002-04-15 19:58:00

Current mood: in pain

what a day! i wonder if i ought to call a lawyer?
Well, my arm is in one of those sturdy things to protect it as i had a nasty fall today...

don't worry, lil one seems to be fine...

i had to get an oil lube and filter today and i also got a new air filter... but they were out of stock so they sent me to their other location in Kitchener and i walked in and there was soapy water spreading down from their doorstep (i think they emptied a mop bucket or something) and there was no sign warning about the wet area but i walked inside and the guy motioned for me to follow him through the garage and out the bay doors to my car, I proceeded to do so and I fell right on the painted concrete in the garage.

Even though I obviously fell very fast, I had the foresight to turn to make sure I landed on my side rather than my tummy and took most of the fall on my left hand.

The guy asked me if I was OK and I said I thought I was, since I didn't land on my tummy. He told me that his wife had fallen down the stairs 2 wks before their child was born and there'd been no prob.., so I proceeded to my car with him and he aksed me again if i was OK and I said that I thought so.

He put the filter in my car and my hand was starting to hurt and he asked again and I said my hand was starting to bother me and I left.

I drove the 4 mins down the street to the urgent care clinic and waited. I saw a DR after being there for about 45 mins. He examined my hand (i had to remove my watch because my wrist was swollen) and said that since i was pregnant that they could not X-ray to see if my hand was broken or not so he told me to ice it and then get one of these pre-formed wrist tensors to protect my hand if it is/was broken and that it would also be useful in the case of a strain or a sprain.

He also said that if I had any abdominal pain, bleeding, abnormal discharge or if the baby wasn't moving, to go to hospital for a stress test on the baby.

I ahven't had any probs with lil one *knocks wood* and S-N-J and I spent HOURS today driving around town to find one of these fucking thigns for my wrist in my goddamn size (small)

So i have a nice goose egg on my left hand near the base of my thumb and a icky purple mark and am in pain...

that was my day...

Thanks to sammygirl-N-J for taking care of me though :>:>:>

Wednesday, April 10, 2002

@ 2002-04-10 10:07:00

Home from the OBGYN
He thinks all the movement last wk indicate that the baby has changed position from sideways to head down. Since the baby has been quiet the past few days, I am partially inclined to agree, however, then why is almost all of the "hard" internal poking happening below my belly button???

I ahve to have the Rh shot since I am A negative and Jay is O positive... I am nervous about that...

It seems nice outside, I think I am going to eat and then take a walk.
@ 2002-04-10 08:02:00

my 2nd OBGYN appt is today (TMI in the morning)
In an hour, actually...

so I am awake and had to pee in the container first thing this morning.

Is it just me, or is it difficult to pee into those things, especially while pregnant when you can't see past your own stomach???

BTW, it's official, my baby belly sticks out farther than my breasts do now...

Monday, April 1, 2002

@ 2002-04-01 08:14:00

Current mood: sore

Ow ow ow
I must have slept funny because my neck and the right side of my back is KILLING me... it was painful to drive DS to work. This sucks :(

In other news, we had 2 delicious Easter dinners so far this weekend and are having one more tonight.

The baby has been so much more active lately that it's been really neat :>:>:> DS hasn't been able to feel the baby moving yet, although sammygirl did yesterday :>

Thursday, March 21, 2002

@ 2002-03-21 23:07:00

wasn't online much at all today because I was sick.. I actually THREW UP ON MYSELF which has never happened in my LIFE, not even when terminally drunk...

Thursday, March 7, 2002

@ 2002-03-07 14:00:00

Current mood: ecstatic
Current music: Ween - Daisies

Went to the OB/GYN today
We got to hear the heartbeat for the first time... we've seen the heartbeat during both ultrasounds but had never heard it before.

WOW!!! It was SO fucking cool!!!!!

Now they think my EDD may actually be July 14th... But I still maintain that the 18th will be the big day...

They confirmed that my DR is a dumb-ass. When I first got pregnant, I informed my DR that I was Rh A negative and that I did not KNOW what my hubby's blood type was and I asked her if we should get him blood-typed. She said no.

Today, after I pick up DS from work... we are going to the clinic to get him blood-typed because if he's negative too, then I don't need any of those shots... :>:>:> so let's hope he's negative *crosses fingers*

Also, my asshole DR did not fwd any of my test results to the OB/GYN so they had to get all my info faxed over while I was there this morning *grr*

So DS and I were there for an hour and a half.

After that, I took DS to work... then stopped off at my grandparents place and had a chat with them and had some of Grandpa's homemade pasta fazui (spelling?) which was YUMMY! I brought home some leftovers :>:>:>

Got tons of info from the OB/GYN to read though so I think I am going to get started on that...

Tuesday, February 26, 2002

@ 2002-02-26 14:08:00

Current mood: sick

still sick, but I've made a small baby poll

Poll #20806 Baby Poll

Do you think I will give birth to:

[info]cagewench -- a girl
[info]sardonyx -- a girl
[info]larissadawn -- a boy
[info]ophelia427 -- a boy
[info]athena_51 -- a girl
[info]digitalsiren -- a girl
[info]unity -- a boy
[info]c_turtle -- a girl
[info]sjmonkey -- a boy

What date do you think I will have my baby (my EDD is July 12th, 2002)
[info]cagewench -- July 18th, 2002
[info]sardonyx -- woo! a Missa bday!
[info]larissadawn -- July 2nd, 2002 (pure guess)
[info]ophelia427 -- Sunday, July 7th, in the evening
[info]digitalsiren -- JULY 18TH !!!!!
[info]unity -- july 8
[info]c_turtle -- july 11
[info]sjmonkey -- July 11th 2002

(I've only left in the people I am still friends with IRL or online)

Friday, February 8, 2002

@ 2002-02-08 17:10:00

Current mood: angry
Current music: Delerium - A Poem For Byzantium

hormonal pregnant woman rant!!!!!!!!!!
What the fuck is up with clothes????????

If I had tons of $$$ I could get some cute items at a maternity store but, being poor, I have to be price-conscious and unfortunately combining LOW-PRICES with MATERNITY or PLUS-SIZES = ugly fucking clothes!

It is so damn difficult to get something comfy and attractive that will fit me right now and that's completely not fair.

To all stores everywhere STOP CATERING TO WAIFS!!!!!!!!!

I am sickened and disgusted by this!!!!!!!

PLUS a cunty saleslady told me that "you'd blow out the seams in that" when I asked to try on a dress marked XL. THe saleslady was pissy because I didn't want to buy a skirt because I am not finding skirts really comfy these days and I really just want dresses to wear during my pregnancy.


Wednesday, February 6, 2002

@ 2002-02-06 07:58:00

Current music: Lynda Carter-Wonder Woman-02 - She's Always a Woman

ughhh i am ill today
head pounding.... throat sore and swollen... feverish... tummy upset.... phelgm phelgm phelgm

this blows. I will not be answering the phone today unless my voice returns and I won't be calling anyone unless under the same aforementioned circumstance.

currently I am drinking peppermint tea with clover honey and am slathered in Vicks Vapour Rub

anyone know of anything safe to take since I'm in my 17th wk of pregnancy?

Monday, January 28, 2002

@ 2002-01-28 10:36:00

Current mood: accomplished

DR's office just called me
Apparently the day I had my ultrasound I was 15 wks and 4 days so my NEW esitmated due date is July the 12th.

That will make Grandma happy because she is convinced that it will be on July 11th (her BDAY) but I still feel that it will be the 18th for some reason.

Tuesday, January 22, 2002

@ 2002-01-22 23:22:00

Today we had a big scare re: the baby (but it's alive)

*sighs* it was a long, scary, stressful day

It all started around 8 a.m. I had two really sharp pains in my lower left abdomen. Like being punched 2x but the person had a sharp, pointed object in their fist when they did it.

It frightened me. After that, it just throbbed. But I wasn't bleeding or anything like that so I didn't tell DS and we proceeded to take him to work... but I kept feeling worse in the car.

I wasn't planning on telling DS because I didn't want to worry him unnecessarily. My plan was to get him to work and then I was going to call sammygirl and D. and get them to either meet me at the shop and take me to the hospital or meet me at the hospital but DS noticed that there was something wrong.

He asked and I started crying and we immediately headed to the hospital.

We were both pretty scared because, although I've been sick as a dog all the way thru my pregnancy thus far... I haven't had anything like that happen before.

Got to the hospital. Was seen. Pain lessened although I still feel kind of tender all over my abdomen, and quite a bit so where that pain struck me today.

The DR was very nice and calming. He sent in a tech with the Doppler device to pick up the heartbeat to reassure me.

The tech couldn't find the heartbeat. He tried for about 20 mins. All he could pick up on was mine. I started crying. (at this point, I'd sent DS to call sammy and d. sammy came to the hospital)

The DR then brought another Doppler and he tried for about 20 mins to find the heartbeat of the baby and couldn't find it either.

I was in despair. I know that all things happen for a reason but I could see no reason in this... I can't recall ever being so scared and afraid.

The DR tried to reassure me, saying that while using it, did I notice that he didn't even always pick up MY heartbeat and that sometimes it's more difficult to pick up depending on the position of the baby and the amount of weight in that area of the mother.

He suggested that I up the appointment date of my ultrasound if I wanted more reassurance (since they couldn't do one at the hospital because it was all booked and because I was having no bleeding and the pain had lessened considerably).

Sammy and DS waited outside while I got dressed and then we all went back to her place where she and her J cheered us up, offered us moral support and really just were wonderful in helping calm me down.

I got my ultrasound squeezed in at the end of the lab tech's day so I had to drink a TON of water (I vomited at the lab... too full) for my ultrasound.

She did an abdominal/external one first. And had a hard time finding the baby and I was crying because I was so scared and DS wasn't allowed in there with me until after she got the info she needed.

She finally found the baby (just one) and assured me that it was alive and turned the screen and indicated the presence of it's beating heart.

I was very happy and relieved.

Then she had me empty my bladder and she did a trans-vaginal ultrasound to try to get the measurements and data that she needed.

Then she did the external one again and then brought Jay in and pointed out the baby and she printed the ultrasound picture for us.

But she wouldn't answer any of my other questions and told me to talk to my DR on Friday about my results so I am still worried.

My theory is that my DR miscalculated the gestational age of my baby.. but I am unsure why the tech was so closed mouth to me.

My ultrasound pic says GA (LMP)=15w1d P90 but I am unsure if that's what they discovered or if they just entered in what my DR believes the GA to be.

The only other thing it says is CN0 14cm DR60 G 48
but I don't know what any of that means.

So I guess I'll have a better idea of what's going on on Friday...

So I am exhausted (even though I had a 3 hr nap when we got home) and will likely be going to bed soon.

I am thankful that things turned out OK today and am praying that there will be no bad or unexpected news re: this on Friday.


Tuesday, January 15, 2002

@ 2002-01-15 14:09:00

IN 2 wks

I get to have my ultrasound so I can finally get a peek at the little one and am also slated for that 16 wk blood screening for Down's etc...

I am scared about that one. But excited that I get to have the ultrasound because I really wanna see what's happening in here :>:>:>

Friday, January 4, 2002

@ 2002-04-01 10:05:00

Current mood: happy

Pregnancy count... wk 26 (this actually begins on Fri the 5th by my count)
Week 26

How your baby's growing: Your baby is beginning to make some breathing movements, but there's no air in the lungs yet. At 26 weeks, fetal brain scans show that she responds to touch. Also, if you shine a light on your abdomen, your baby will turn her head, which researchers say shows some functioning of the optic nerve.

How your life is changing: Sleep may not feel that restful anymore, now that you're having vivid and scary dreams. When you sleep, your subconscious becomes a staging area for your fears and insecurities about pregnancy and impending motherhood. Dreaming that you're running away or falling from a great height, for instance, says you're worried about losing your independence and freedom once the baby arrives.

If your healthcare provider previously screened you for pregnancy anemia, a deficiency of red blood cells, she may do so again around this time. Many pregnant women develop a mild case of the illness because of normal changes in their bodies.