more posts from the past

April 3, 2003
Proud Mommy alert

March 21st - age: 35 wks, 6 days
event: repeatedly got into a sitting position from laying down on the floor, without any assistance from ppl or objects. I'd never caught him doing this before although he was sitting up on the 20th and neither Mom nor I had seen him do it and hadn't placed him in that position (well, Mom couldn't remember if she'd sat him up or not)

STILL March 21st - event: once doing the sitting up thing repeatedly during the morning, Torin began grabbing [my birth mom]'s coffee table and pulling himself up, but not to a complete stand... only pulling himself high enough to then proceed to bite and attempt to chew on the edge of said table.

March 22nd - age: 36 wks
event: one of this top teeth was visible through his gums (this is tooth #3 for [Little Man])

march 24th - age: 36 wks, 2 days
event: [Little Man] pulled self to a stand, multiple times, from a sitting position at Mom H's using her coffee table

march 25th - age: 36 wks, 3 days
event: another tooth up top became visible through his gums (tooth #4)
event #2: [Little Man] began to "travel" by holding on to the table and then walking around it

I think this is pretty good for a wee man who will be 9 months old on April 13th. (which is odd when you consider that 36 wks makes 9 months)

Feb 14, 2003

OK, over a wk ago, [Little Man] said, "Mama" 2x while taking a break from chewing on my arm, but he hadn't said it since and I didn't think it counted as he didn't seem to actually be using it in reference to me.

BUT!!!!!!!!!!

Today, he has been doing a lot of sounds, Mama, Ga-ga, Dada etc... well, my sister was holding him and he began to say, "Mu, Mu, Mu, Ma, Ma, MMMMMMMMMMMM, MAMA, Mama!" and he sorta lunged away from her arms and reached for me at the same time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited!!!!

And he just did it again while I was posting this!!!!!!!!!!

Feb 7, 2003

boob first thing in the morning (6:30). 2 to 3 hrs later, 3 tablespoons of rice cereal mixed with breast-milk and depending on weather 1.5 - 3 tablespoons of fruits followed about 15 mins later by more boob. (if it's cold, he always wants to eat more than if it is mild out)

about 2 to 3 hrs later, 3 tablespoons of rice cereal mixed with breast-milk and 2 - 3 tablespoons of veggies followed about 15 mins later by more boob. Though if he still acts like he wants more solids I'll give him one tablespoon of fruit if he hasn't pooped in a day or of veggie if he has. Then, if he acts thirsty, he gets boob immediately elsewise I wait 15 mins to a half hour as he's very good at letting me know if he's hungry.

About 3.5 hrs after this he gets 3 tablespoons of rice cereal mixed with breast-milk and 2 tablespoons of veggies followed about 15 mins later by more boob.

About 3 hrs after this he may get 2 table spoons of rice cereal mixed with breast-milk if he seems unsatisfied by boob. And then I feed on demand until bedtime via boob.

The timeframes are based on the sked that [Little Man] has set for himself.. if he gives me his hunger cues earlier or later, I feed him when I see the cues.

:>

Feb 1, 2003

1st tooth - Bottom left incisior

Jan 22, 2003

carrots - he'll eat them but he's not digesting it well at all
squash - excellent
green beans - good
corn - BAD

applesauce - he got it for the first time today and he made the funniest faces. he didn't like it!

Nov 13, 2002

length: 26 and a quarter inches
weight: 16 lbs 4 oz (so he's less than 2 lbs away from doubling his birth weight)
head circumference: 42

that puts him in the 75% percentile

Oct 22, 2002

[Little Man] rolled all the way over today... he's been rolling from his back to his side for a month or more but he would always get pissed off before he actually got all the way over onto his stomach.

once on his tummy he seemed very nonchalant about the whole thing but i was VERY excited :>:>:>

Oct 17, 2002

feeling really rundown today but still in good spirits.

every time I look at [Little Man] I am utterly amazed at how strong and smart he is! And he is almost always SO happy and I want to do my best to help him stay that happy for the rest of his life.

I always imagined how much I'd love my children when I would someday have them but it wasn't even close to the way I feel... my love for my son blow what I had imagined I'd feel out of the water with the intensity of it all.

:>

Sept 25, 2002

perfect love
perfect joy
perfect trust
ultimate innocence
the personification of happiness

the depth of the soul
reflected in wide, smiling eyes
gazing up at me
the encompassing emotions of motherhood
took me by surprise

Strength, empathy, love, trust
intuition, knowledge, joy

My heart came to life
and resides inside him...
my impish little boy

cooing and squealing
with unsurpassable delight

Nursing at my breast
sleeping on my chest
held tightly in my arms
cradled forever in my soul

My precious one
my only son
you made me whole

Sept 13, 2002

... And sometimes I wonder how I will raise my son to do good in this world, despite all the evil in it, and how I will protect him from it...

I want to be a hero.

Not a military hero or a rescue-related hero... I want to be an everyday hero. I think everyone could be one. By being the best they can be, by encouraging ppl and loving ppl instead of hating. By promoting honesty, faith and goodwill.

By leading by example.

I have an even greater opportunity to be a hero in regards to my young son.

If I can raise and nuture and love him while he grows from an adorable infant, to toddlerhood and then through childhood and into adulthood, I think I will BE a hero and will have raised someone who can be a hero to someone else.

Does anyone understand this? Because I am having difficulty finding the right words to truly express this...

Sept 9, 2002

Today [DS] *(code name for my ex) turned 30.

Today marked the supreme champion in worst poop ever... [DS] was holding a grunting and red-faced [Little Man] who proceeded to expel a golf-ball sized poop out of the leg of his diaper and onto [DS]'s arm PLUS filling his entire diaper...